No Regrets..Not Yet

Early Monday morning, I made an emotionally long road trip with Koda in the backseat. Both of us crying. Him crying because he doesn't like car rides, while my tears were a result of me knowing where this road trip was taking us.

This particular road trip was to the Animal Shelter where I dropped Koda off to his final destination. The gal behind the counter was extremely kind and compassionate as I struggled to explain why I was there through my own sobs.

As she carried Koda away, his cries echoed through the building. And without warning, they stopped. Which triggered more sobs from me. I must have looked so pathetic standing there with my empty carrier, crying. Pathetic enough that they waived the fee. Either that or it was "Free Day" for the blubbering idiots.

As guilty as I feel, and as traumatic as it has been, there are no regrets. I have spent the last 2 evenings shampooing carpets that must be replaced because of the damage he caused. I know deep down inside I made the right decision. He was sick, and as badly as I wanted him to be okay, he was suffering as much as we were........